Rainy Day

It seems like i awake every morning and wonder about being a submissive. I sometimes wonder "why" but dismiss that because i just simply accept it as a product of nature and nurture... it is what it is :). Sometimes i wonder if i really need to know anything else or develop beyond the knowing. So, i suppose that is where i am today... do i really need to know anything else and develop beyond just the knowing.

It is not as though i don't believe that i am because i am very certain of it and came to terms with it several years ago. Sometimes the phrase "came to terms" has a negative connotation, and i don't mean for it to sound negative. I was on a quest to figure out the hows and whys of my interpersonal relationships and life choices and found that as a natural submissive, i was being guided by the desire to seek dominance for many years.... i don't remember a time when i wasn't searching.

i hope to develop that thought of "progressing beyond where i am now"....