Focus

i believe i have had an "ah ha" moment. It follows the line of thinking that where the mind goes so goes the body. i must do a better job keeping my mind where it needs to be so that the slut is fed. Somehow i need to do a better job at associating everyday, ordinary things to using them to trigger erotic thoughts and responses. i cannot even believe how vanilla my mind is when the coast is so totally clear to be the slut! i must learn to seize the opportunities always, in all ways, at all times.

Friday

It's Friday. i am home for a lunch break.

As much as i like to think that i am cruising through tax season pretty decently while taking care of my typical work load i now have a new fantasy that may be evidence that i am not just sailing through. Here's what happened. From my POV of course ;). i was really peeved with a woman at work this morning because of her "no can do" attitude which i just don't understand. i mean, really, it's a busy time and everyone has to do extra, right? .... i know i am a sub and usually jump in to do what i can so that the work gets done whether i really want more to do or not. Whatever....

Anyways, i am tasked to use my bathroom time in a certain way now. And when i was just about ready to strangle this person i had to pee. Off i went into the lav, cursing her in my mind while taking the clothespins from the zipper pocket in the lining of my purse. Down went the pants. i sat and pulled my nipples and applied the pegs. Curse, curse, curse. And then the most wonderful thing happened.... the tension and anger and curse words just went out of my mind.... i was instantly calm. Instantly aroused. It was like i gave it all away and Master smoothed my spikey energy with words and attitudes that He's placed in my mind.

Must get back to work... maybe i'll have time to write tonight.

Fitting Pieces

Does the need ever go away?

In the big picture of life, how important is it to be able to express this need to..... i dunno... serve in a way that facilitates the submissive parts interlocking with Dominant parts? To be used? To be required to achieve? i wonder if i will ever figure this out!

i thought i was all done with today's post and then i remembered that i must try to get to the point of whatever it is that makes me write this stuff. So here it is

sometimes i wonder if i create the need by feeding it and agreeing to it being fed.... or does it come naturally...

no.... i don't think i created it.

Boots

mmmmmm warm bodies under warm covers......

Your boot is gliding along my slit and it brings instant wetness. It's not my slit, it's yours. You allow me to use it because it pleases you to do so. And because it pleases you i am putty in your hands. i am throbbing.

Your boot pushes up against my lips, not yet making way into the softer, wetter hidden parts. My mind hears your demand to pull my lips apart, so i do. I scooped from the pool of wet pussy, tasted, and then felt your boot tip touching that sensitive spot at the bottom of my opening. When you kiss me you'll taste pussy. I crave your fingers inside of me, stroking the wetness up along side of my clit, around it, moving the hood.... that hood that is yours and will be ringed as a symbol of what i am. This time i want to cum. I don't know whether i am allowed to or not. Tonight i want to cum on your boot, cum on your fingers. i can almost do it but can't quite get there. I don't know if i'm even allowed to cum. Slut won. Slut said get your vibe and cum for him.... he lit this fire in you, show him....

I once read somewhere that the long term denial of orgasms for men works well for them in that it builds the need to a near painful level. And for women it doesn't work like that. We love to be toyed with, brought close, practiced, practiced. Mind prepared, body follows. mmmmmmm