Back to Basics

Master, today feels so brand new and i am so grateful!! What i mean is that i feel new energy or new hope or optimism. It's all three, really. i remember you saying back in the early days of our relationship something like "let's see the world as half full, girl". Today i just embrace that even more. i will also embrace the gift of living in each day as it comes.

i'm not sure how i moved away from living with joy in each day but i did. Before going farther i would like to offer this confession to You, Master. i don't know if it's stress, or hormones, or lack of sleep or what but probably a combination of all that plus some other things just have interfered with my grateful service to You. i didn't realize that until today. Maybe i've just been a pain in the ass. Maybe been bratty. Yet in the moment i thought i was serving well. But i think i lost sight of staying in the day and in the moment of just being grateful for You.

So, i confess a need to be accountability grateful. What i mean is this. Daily meditating. Bathroom times always with clamps and touches and visualization and pee. Cocks to ride on daily and being grateful in knowing it's Your pussy being made wet. Your nipple sheilds. Daily or multiple times daily, edging. Daily or multiple times a day fantasizing. Daily kegels. Lots of water. Daily writing to You about it all right here because You want me to because it keeps us connected during our busy lives. You've given me structure and i'm tapping into it more by talking to You about it.

So grateful to You, Master for Your patience and care.

Balance

I think i've run out of things to talk about, at least for a time. Don't have any big things weighing on my mind. oh wait a sec, maybe there is something....

How does a sub achieve balance in all parts of life? I mean, i do alright maintaining a decent balance between work and home and responsibilities.... seems like work takes most of my time and energy but outside of work, the chores i really have to do get done. I guess i'm wondering about submitting and if it should be a part of my thought life most of the time? How do i maintain a balance?

Maybe it's like being on a diet. Let's say somebody's on a diet. They don't "work" the diet constantly in a way that dieting is all they do at the exclusion of other priorities. But it's there planned for and put into action and being worked so that there is success.

So maybe D/s balance is similar.... we don't "work" it constantly at the exclusion of other priorities but it is always there with the reminders of the tasking helping me along so that when Sir desires action from me, he gets it :). Yes, this last sentence "did it for me" :)).