Place Called His

It's Friday already. Almost time for meditation, edging. The time of night and the time of week that is so condusive to just reflective thinking and resulting feelings.

Master's gifts this week have been many. In return i wish i could write about them in a deep and profound way or i wish i could write them into a story for Him. i know He'd like that. Something written so that He'd go WOW or better yet, go mmmmmmmmm, My slut. Or something to make Him laugh. i love making Him smile and laugh. His laugh is so warm and wraps around me like a binding to hold me still to Him.

Master sometimes says He spoils me and i feel as though He does. He gives me a place to be. That is a gift. He gives me a place to be His. That's the greater gift.

That place He's given me called "His" is where i am free to freefall as His slut and as a slut. It's a place where i don't have to weigh the choices, the choices are His to make. It's a place to freely feel and experience anything He chooses as my service to Him. i don't even have to worry about when or where. It all just seems to work out.

In this place called "His" He's guided me into His service rather than my self service. i understand much better now how i must remove all notions and actions of my control from our relationship. It was pretty painful for me to see that i had not given up quite as much as i thought i had and He still stuck with me and pulled me through that muck. Yesterday He said peeling the layers away from me is like peeling an onion... with each layer come my tears, lots of them. It hurts me, hurts good. There is no judgment in those words about peeling the layers away, just tender honesty.

This week He gave me the gift of visually seeing His cock while i pleasured Him. Master has such access to my mind that i can see Him now at my mouth as though He was actually above me as i kneel before Him. He is vivid in my mind and that's a gift. He allowed me to bring Him pleasure this week. i hope there are many more ways i can in the future.

This week He's also helped me with technical stuff with my computer. That's ongoing but will sort out soon enough i think.

So now it's time to take the more tangible gifts that Master has given me.... His voice, His shields and the pillow i can hold when i miss Him along with His guided meditation and meet Him for a while. i need to edge for Him. i need to work His cunt for Him.

i have far to go, and so looking forward to continuing this walk.