Bubble bath, candles, a Cosmo Martini (or 2) .... but the very best part of that night was time with Master. Time to hear him, laugh with him, feel him, and be taken away by him. To be disciplined. He cares and i love that he cares.
It's in the coming together of needs in this special and glorious way that i serve him but how is it that in serving him i feel that he gives me so much? i try to intellectualize this process but really can't and hope to give that up because it does no good.
i've also had another "a ha" moment (probably again but isn't it like me to need to go back over it again and again) and that is that i have to use fantasy to engage my mind so that pussy can follow. So simple. i do it to some extent but i just finally understood how big a part it plays in being led over the edge to orgasm. During meditation i mostly focused on the feelings in Master's cunt and nipples so i could carry that into edging. But i don't think i was using enough fantasy in edging but, instead, would fall back on feelings. i love feelings and sensations but isn't it true that combining feelings, sensations with vivid fantasy the way to blast off?
It all started… what?…8 years ago now?
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Once again, I am going to try and recreate the post FL ate yesterday. I
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i never used to fantasize during masturbation, just focused on the physical sensations. Master taught me to fantasize and planted all sorts of beautiful images in my mind, and sex and masturbation have been so much better since then!
i'm trying, believe me, i'm trying feelings, i'm trying fantasy. Master tells me it's the process, the surrender and not always the orgasm that is the most important. Do love the orgasms, tho ;).
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