Rubbing One Out

This is a new term for me. i heard it for the first time maybe a couple of months ago and i wonder if it has been in common use for way longer. Anyways i confess that i am one to just want to rub one out.

Lazy cunt is term that i'm more familiar with. i finally had the lazy cunt personal aha moment today. i've known i was/had/is a lazy cunt for a couple of years now but finally today it just sunk in. My lazy cunt is ready to be worked and taught and used for the benefit of the one i hope to serve and for my own benefit.

Sometimes i think a lazy mind goes along with the lazy cunt. i have a lazy mind which is probably due to being able to grasp things quickly and sometimes deeply without trying too hard. Sort of like the lazy cunt, isn't it, quick and sometimes deep without trying too hard.

When i want to masturbate i just grap the fav vibe, get the feeling going and off i go. i don't even think i can orgasm without the vibe. i can almost but not quite.

This where D/s ties into this topic.... dominants have a way of pulling the best out of submissives, don't they? Over time, with much patience and encouragement and probably puninshment, they shape the sexuality of their submissives to a new level. They can even instill their own personal fetishes into the mind and body of their girls so that those fetishes become shared.

i am early in a relationship with a dominant who lives in a different city and has his life there which he loves very much. He's fun and funny and witty. i love the sound of his voice. He's sooo sexual.

This man captivates my mind and body. He has me meditating 30 minutes each day to focus: on him, on how he controls my pussy and how my pussy controls my mind. To recognize and focus on the sexual feelings and sexual energy. The meditation makes me very open to him. It trains my mind and body and at the same time it's very relaxing and refreshing.